orange to blue

for the record

sigh, this always happens.

everytime i fall hard for someone…it happens like this:

- they catch me off guard and do some major flirting

- i finally get it through me that they might be into me, i think to myself, oh wow, i’m really into them

- time goes by and the whole time i’m still into them

- meet up again, and nothing reciprocated

- yet, i am still in deep crush…

happens. every. time.

- then i do stupid stuff then spend time alone kicking myself for falling for it.

also note, this happens with musicians. sigh, they are just sooo dreamy! i can’t help myself…

i know, seem somewhat juvenile to still be writing about this…but i feel that something has to be wrong with me? am i doing something wrong when i finally notice their flirting? maybe i should keep the aloofness.