orange to blue

Here we come to…

… the sun. I have seriously been really addicted to this album since it came out. not sure if it is because it reminds me that I truly should be a PNW hippie or what, but i love it. and specially this album. spud introduced me to these guys, but i never really got into them.

I really really really hate myself when someone makes me seem like a complete idiot. i know, everyone feels this way. but really, i just try to be nice and i know that i am sometimes annoying (yes, i know we’ve talked about this and you say that perhaps it is all in my head, but thanks to bad tomato 2, it is perhaps not).

setup: so you know about the background of DC2 and since DC3 at the moment is very busy and idk i really like him and i have tried to make connection already and thought that maybe i’d lay off. so it doesn’t hurt to contact DC2 because i’m not interested in the least bit and eh, i need friends. and guess what?! he started dating someone a few weeks ago. ok ok ok me in my head “how do you think that is suppose to make me feel?! 1,) you didn’t tell me when i was texting you and was like hey, lets hang out 2.) you say ridiculous things basically like ‘you are not cool enough for me to have priority to hang out with you’.”

i am trying really really hard to not have this get to me. but, it was his ridiculous email that set me off with a tone that seemed to indicate that i was a crazy clingy person. (eyeroll)

sigh these last few posts is really make it seem like i’m feeling very sappy lately. probably because i’m missing friends. and don’t have anything stable in my life that all of this emotion is bubbling over.

well, i’ll be back to the grad school world soon enough…