Here we come to…
April 1, 2011 at 5:58 pm | Posted in orange | 3 Comments… the sun. I have seriously been really addicted to this album since it came out. not sure if it is because it reminds me that I truly should be a PNW hippie or what, but i love it. and specially this album. spud introduced me to these guys, but i never really got into them.
I really really really hate myself when someone makes me seem like a complete idiot. i know, everyone feels this way. but really, i just try to be nice and i know that i am sometimes annoying (yes, i know we’ve talked about this and you say that perhaps it is all in my head, but thanks to bad tomato 2, it is perhaps not).
setup: so you know about the background of DC2 and since DC3 at the moment is very busy and idk i really like him and i have tried to make connection already and thought that maybe i’d lay off. so it doesn’t hurt to contact DC2 because i’m not interested in the least bit and eh, i need friends. and guess what?! he started dating someone a few weeks ago. ok ok ok me in my head “how do you think that is suppose to make me feel?! 1,) you didn’t tell me when i was texting you and was like hey, lets hang out 2.) you say ridiculous things basically like ‘you are not cool enough for me to have priority to hang out with you’.”
i am trying really really hard to not have this get to me. but, it was his ridiculous email that set me off with a tone that seemed to indicate that i was a crazy clingy person. (eyeroll)
sigh these last few posts is really make it seem like i’m feeling very sappy lately. probably because i’m missing friends. and don’t have anything stable in my life that all of this emotion is bubbling over.
well, i’ll be back to the grad school world soon enough…
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Ugh. I know those e-mails. The ones that make you roll your eyes and yell at the computer screen, but later you go back and reread and think maybe he’s right, maybe I did something wrong? then you try and respond to smooth everything over and it just sets the whole cycle off again. That was pretty much the basis of my “relationship” with staple boy. So what I learned from that experience, and hopefully you can benefit from, is that anyone who sends those kinds of e-mails or makes you feel like an idiot is not worth your time. Shrug, tell yourself all right then, never mind, and move right along. Not worth the effort. The boy in question is always welcome to come back and redeem himself, but don’t waste any more of your time or brain cells trying to figure out how to adapt yourself to his liking. Nooooooot worth it.
Comment by blue— April 2, 2011 #
also, I googled your subject line to find out which album you were talking about, and this blog is the fifth result! heh.
Comment by blue— April 7, 2011 #
uh oh. not good. is heh good or bad? ;/
Comment by orange— April 7, 2011 #