orange to blue

every story is a love story

oh it’s been forever.

The guy I had a crush on in high school designed a really cool website – very simple, it’s just a bulletin board you put post-its on, but you can share the link with your friends so they can see it, or even set it so they can put post-its up too.  so I was like, hey, I should make one with orange!  but then I remember, heyyyy, we already have a shared website… it’s just neglected.

I’m having a life-direction crisis.  I want to move back to the city of rain and roses so badly it hurts.  I feel like that’s where I belong, that is where I feel the most comfortable.  So I’m job searching.  But it’s conflicting.

What if I don’t find a job?  I don’t want to teach anymore, but I have no experience in anything EXCEPT teaching.  I don’t want to get stuck in this job just because it’s a steady paycheck and decent benefits.

What if I do find a job?  Even though I don’t particularly like teaching overall, I’m having a very good year.  I have some truly amazing students, that I really enjoy working with every day.  I have no behavior problems, and for the first time, I feel like I actually get to teach instead of spending 80% of my time babysitting / running mob control.  My students and I have set goals together, and we’re well on our way to exceeding those goals thanks to the relationships that we’ve built.  Leaving them in the middle of the year would be very, very difficult.

but it would be worth it if I could move back home.

job searching sucks, though.